HaPpY nEw YeAr???? or SaD nEw YeAr?

Its been almost time to say good by to 2008 and say welcome to 2009, but i couldn't figure out how to welcome 'IT'. Pretending happy and bow-ing it??, just to show that i am ok when i am totally not?? o.O... well yeah! i am not happy in this happy new year... I've been recieving a lot of sweet smses from my belovers which doesnt really make me happy after reading them.. i don feel like texting anyone like i used to do.. so i am texting them saying 'same to you too' with a smiley face though i am not.....i mean, whats the point of me getting happy when i know i am not! i know that all are out there having fun, enjoying,dancing, exchanging gifts so n so.. but what am i doing here? sitting and expressing whats in my heart?? damn these stupid weirdness which is killing me!!! damn! i am staying away from my friends, damn, i am so lonely here.. :(
This is the worst so called HAPPY NEW YEAR for me in my whole life!

i think, once i told some one that 2007 was the best year of all.. cause my friends n i used to hav a lot of fun in DJs and at there places.. those days were the best days of all.. and yeah ofcourse 2008 became better than "best" as i've spent the maximum time with my friends hanging out and going out for dhathuru and all..

well lets see what i've had in 2008;

used to stay awake late at night with friends roaming around.. here and there

went for three days over night to an island with friends

spent an overnight in a studio with friends.. it was fun..

had sleep overs at friends places...

got so attached to a friends family..
and so an soo.. (the family was soo kewl.. they loved me a lot)

every one used to come over my place like EVERY DAY to have fun...

learned to play guitar.. dheevaana vey moosum ge raagu ekani.... o.O (thanks to SP) ^_^

went to Malay with my bestest pals.. a e va dhathureh!! :D

*sigh......just wish i cud go back and start over.. but naah... nothings gonna be the same ever.. neway...
those people who r happy out there!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

photography...

i just cant stop taking snap shots from my camera and my phone these days... photography is something i've always loved.. i thought having a simple camera would do everything i want.. but when i hav a one.. now i keep wanting a BETTER one.. from the current camera which i have (W170) Cant capture objects using macro.. and macro is superkewl.. i wanna get a better one! a BETTER ONE!! :(

but hey... my phone makes me happy as i capture much greater pictures in different styles.. so hav a look on what i've been up to recently..

this is taken from my phone (nokia7610)



this is from my mobile too.. its my diary...




this is from my camera... it isnt that kewl..

Strange phrases and words..

whats the word u split out when somebody pinches you or when u get a surprise or when some one scares u oorr when u see something scary??
is it the same word that you use in such situations?? i bet NO!!??

well, i've found out that lot of people uses different strange words in different situations and its kinda funny when i hear them..i mean like.. kama nugulhey bas bas kiyaa meehun ves ulhey... it could be anything which doesnt really have a meaning to what situation u use it though.. oh yeah.. i know, its not unusual that everyone has a habbit of splitting out words when u tremble.. but what i am saying is... why do u have to remember your mom or your moms parts oorr poops that u waste in such situations WHEN u actually hav to remember god or like something good...

anyway I bet most of you uses the word SHIT in your daily life.. (ye, including me o.O) we use it in times and its like kasheega hifaafa ey bunaa hen, 'angaiga harulaafa' hunna baheh..

tell u, i have this friend who always uses CANCLE in times and mostly when he finds out that something wrong goes around among us.. and he says like " CANCLE!! thihiree mulhin CANCLE board ah laan jehifa" dhen nuheyn huttas heveyne ehen buneema,

and the other phrase he uses is "ALLAH AKBAR FAUZIYYA, ALHAMDHULILLAAHI FAUZIYYA" duuhh.. dont u find it funny?? he uses it (aslu we) mostly when he sees something funny happening around..

the other most cute word he uses is.. 'Amaabandu' nukiyan vegen "amaa... naai" and the interesting thing is the way he says it.. he wud say "Amaa" and waits for few secounds and then says "naai".. and thats when somebody hits him dam hard.. hehe

ooh one more, he always says JOOOOOS for what ever we say... like for example i ask him something and then instead of answering me he would say JOOHEY??? u know like "ain?? :S" hehe..

well there are so many phrases i've learned from this friend ad its humorousely funny and adorable.. you'd simply love to hear his funny talks...
just missed the phrases and so thought to share this with u guys..
(picture by divaint art)



(miss u Hassan)

feeling lonely...

its so late and am still awake...on my bed...
it hurts when memories keep flashing all over me,
loneliness in the darkness has become a burden,
i cudnt unzip my lips and wipe my tears, which became my friend instantly..
silence started visiting me recently, cause there is always emptiness which desperately waits for it...
where ever i go...quietness walks with me like a shadow, as i happily take them with me..
and now, i think i've started forgetting a lot..
somebody told me a joke today and i totally didnt know what to do when everyone else were laughing..
then i remembered..
my best friend 'smile' left me days ago and it never came back..
i cant forget the goodbyes it waved me the day it left me...
i am so lonely in this hollowly room..
i need my friends back..
i feel weak and lost in here
and its hard to understand i've never been felt this way ever..

oh dam these tears.. i don want them, but it keeps coming..
for god sake.. these feelings... i want them to runaway..
but it wont just go...
not until my "NEWLY" friends are here... (if u know what i mean)
(picture by divaint art)

life's so empty when u realize u left your life out there and starts a new one for the better or worst